current mood : stoning away. the mind's still at siloso beach resort like 3 nights ago

This post's header sounds happy, doesn't it? don't be so quick to judge.

So fad, mama and me hungout over coffee, green teas and hot teas over at the patio and smoking too many fags when we shouldn’t have until 3 in the morning. with 4 hours of not enough sleep. i’m a walking zombie today and a cranky fasting one  must add.

i hadn’t had time to sit and pen down stuff that was happening around me. important stuff. hurtful stuff. sometimes i wonder how much more interesting stuff does my life want. they always come knocking onto my door. anyhows, let’s recap cos i don’t wanna miss a thing anymore

Since Aji left, the americans came for a mth and a half. they’ll be leaving in..what? heck..3days time. i’m saying..i really am gonna miss them SICK. especially my baby nadia. well, all of the kids. it has been a hell of a tiring period but all worth being tired for. they make me feel like i have a family, which i have been missing out on that for so long. fuck..now that i AM thinking about it..i’m telling you..i am SO deprived. pffft. pathetic man. gosh it’ll be so sad to have them leave.

and so about the tattoo. so ibu knew. let’s see how it goes, cos mama’s gonna talk to ibu about resolving family matters ONCE AND FOR ALL. i can’t believe how i got disappointed by my own cousin, of whom i treat her as my elder sister. all these while, you and your husband were what? backstabbing me and telling all the lies and crap about me and fad…tsk man disappointing. you and your husband don’t work, depend dole ftom the govt and you call fad useless? man, you guys gotta wake up. and rubbing salt onto the wound when i was trying to make peace with my folks? man u friggin disgust me. tskkkk

mama’s trying to fix a meet up with everyone to straighten my life out. i’ll know by end of day.  i hope that ibu’ll agree to meet cos things are gonna be draggy until the day i die. what else…apart from that we had a huge dinner at east coast with dada and fiancee. wished i had more time, but they were also occupied with their pre wedding stuff so…separately, i lost my engagement ring. yup. dont even ask. fad’s gotta be the most patient man i’ve ever met.

there’s truckloads more to write..but i’m too lazy for now. so. am gonna piss off.